My Heart Will Go On

Him : If you love me, why don't you kiss me? Me : surprised.

What do you think you have boyfriend from another country? He is French or he is from Germany, maybe... And what the people think about you if you hang out with your handsome boyfriend in a romantic cafe, and every body look at you? It's like so proud of you, you will be very happy, and that's your day!! And can you imagine when you are in your wedding day and wearing awesome wedding dress. Your parents smiling and said, "Look! What a lucky my daughter!" 

That's exactly what I was thinking about when I met someone, someone who always in my head 'til right now. He is French. I met him when took master degree in Yogyakarta. I met him in a simply conversation that brought me in awesome experience. 

One day, after we knew each other, we attended a party with other foreigners. There is something that I can't forget in my life. He ask me to dance, very happy day to dance. When we were dancing, he asked me, "Can I ask you something?" And I said, "Yes, of course!" And the said, "I think that you love me, Anita. But why don't you kiss me?" 

I just stopped dancing and surprised. Then he told me that love me. He was waiting me to kiss him first to make sure that I love him too. Sure, I love him so much. I do love him, and I want to kiss him. BUT no lady first! haha... And in the end of dance, he engaged me to be his wife! Oh damn...It's like God give you one hundred thousand dollar in one second! He smiled and touched my hand, his puppy eyes...oh my God! I still remember it!

I wanna say YES, but I'm not be able to say anything in that time. I have a lot of thing in my head. How about our parents? how about my future, our study, nationality, and of course the most important thing is how about RELIGION?" That's the biggest problem that I ever had in my life.

He gave me one week to think about that. During one week after he engaged me, we always talk about our wedding, our honeymoon in Bali for one month, and our future in French, and happy ever after. Do you think it will be true?

But actually the really speak louder, even we love each other so much, but we have different religion. And in my religion, I can't marry someone who has different religion with me. I can't broke this rule, of course. Then, I said NO to him one week after. And start from that day, story about Anita and her French boyfriend is over. Even we have different religion and different country but I still feel his love. But now, the girl is dancing with another man...But, her heart will go on.